IN MY ABSENCE

It has been like what? a year and a half? I tried to blog but my friend LazyMcCreery took over (i love scotty) In my absence these happened:

I got a job

transferred to the Metro

Broke up with my BF of almost 4 years

Found someone else

Moved into an apartment

Had 2 dogs

Got engaged

Got Pregnant

Resigned from work

Reconnected with an old flame

Had a baby boy

Had to give away my dogs

Disconnected with the old flame

Was sleep deprived on the first 2 months of post natal

Saw the joy of being a mom

License expired then renewed (or renewed then expired?)

Fiancé had an operation

Arranged a baptismal party

Currently looking for work

Is watching Avatar, looking for a career path worth taking, hearing someone snore behind me.

Cool ain't it!

BEING A BUM..I dare you to envy me

THE LIFE OF A NEWLY GRAD HEREIN:

Well it's like, 4 in the morning and mr sandman has not yet visited me, he must have forgotten about me after i beat him up the last time he put me to sleep while i was watching HOUSE season 4 final episode. I need/love sleep, but since MAY 2008 i have been sleeping late and waking up late, my Mom has labeled me the household vampire, i only eat dinner and midnight snack, im deprived of food, i never see anyone around our house considering that there are 6 of us living here, my dogs seized to notice me or they ignore me completely now since Im only awake at their sleeping hour. On the brightside I live in a house where evrything is free, food, clothes, tv, net, water, electricity.
I dare you to envy me since i can do anything. The downside is im broke, flat broke. The whole point is since Ive graduated i need to find myself a job and stop asking my parents for money. But the question is how do i fight laziness? (rhetorical question)

Student Nurses and Their Grammar

This year as a senior who has been majoring on religious education (joke lang, walo kasi ang RE ko daig pa ang major subjects na 5 lang) we were given/ assigned a new instructor. X-men na naman meaning dating seminarista. Ewan ko ba kung bakit RE teacher sya ay napakahilig magcheck ng grammar sa essay namin, na kaya naman nagkakamali mali dahil sa tuwing mag papaexam sya ay ugaling ugali nya na magbilang ng natititrang minuto daig pa ang timer.

So onetime while having my regular RLE (OJT sa hospital) i chanced upon some narrative reports from other schools made by sophies. Since i was in the ER and not so many patients crowd the area, i tried reading one here it goes. Pay attention to the underlined words:

The second day of our duty in (sorry di pede), time of our duty is 12 pm -6 pm in (sorry ulit) I was assigned to have a patient in (again)

The routine of our duty usally begins with an opening prayer leaded ( a oo my word na leaded)by one of our groupmates. Then we started our duty by taking vital signs to our designated patient(kailangan dala mo ang vital signs hahahah). My patient is hypertension (bago to ah). I took her BP q 1 since her BP is monitoring( di ba dapat i monitored her BP per hour nalang). I started my duty to my patient by introducing my self, have (had had had past tense na nga eh)an NPI and health teachings were also given. Since my patient were(isa lang day) ready to go home home at 5 pm( tapos... dapat my kasunod pa independent caluse to.). The we took their vital signs till 4 pm only. We also listen(inconsistency in tenses) to our (inangkin ang staff) staff nurses for endorsements... I thank you to our Clinical instructor (aba childrens beauty contest ba itech).

See what i mean. The one who wrote this is probably 17 or 18 years old or even older (the school accepts second coursers) So if my Instructor is having fun checking our mistakes, i wonder if he'll get over this narrative report.

PS

i still have 5 more where that came from

Naming Game

Yeah it was raining flooded and these puddles just love sinking their way in my chuck taylors. I don't know why when we are assigned to a new community (for my RLE) i just love to volunteer gathering data from the farthest clusters. This must be God saying, "oi, gala ka talaga ha, umuwi ka na"

This is not about me sour graping on my RLE but rather about a game called naming game. In this game you must choose a category in which you could name as many things, persons that belongs to them. Today was my day the category was apparel anything form a-z. Christian, my friend always wins this, so now i get the chance to kick his butt bu choosing something a guy is not good at "signature clothing" ahahha

Anyway i won and that game made the distance of about 2 miles shorter. i love being the winner, since i never won any game if i compete with him he is so good at this, that makes me feel only second best, but still better than the others. Someday i could beat him again i just don't know how yet and what category to choose. A paln should be made he should be anahilated ahhahaha

Give me my Pain killers!

God give me my pain killers, was the only thing i can hear myself screaming, as i lay in bed after i sent those offline messages. If those pain killers can reduce emotional pain as it do physiologic pains, it would be the best selling drug. How can some peolple live so obliviously numb... ah redundant. After all things have been said and done, MANHID pa rin yung isang tao jan. I'm so tired of explaining and listening to invalid reasons, they seem so vague. Honesty is all i want. Give it to me i can take it. I'm a big girl now. Then give me a box of Tylenol to go with those eerie, suicidal words

an old blog from my friendster dated November 24,2006

Blogging:Suicidal's Therapy

People ask why i blog? Tama ba yung question?
Simple lang...It prevents me from killing myself...SERIOUSLY

Remember when i said nobody appreciates my writting? Well may nagkamali pa naman at napansin to. Dahil kailangan, i submitted a piece to the moderator of our school paper..I repeat sapilitan to. I did not think na ilalagay nya to sa school paper. Oh the shame...Thankfully pede ang screen name.

Here is the piece:

THE SUICIDAL NOTE

Dear whoever will be reading this;
I dont know whether a a suicidal note needs a salutaion or not, but nevertheless it might sound better if it has one, so i might as well continue.

I ended my life in the easiest manner i know, by over dosing myself with sleeping pills. Don't get me wrong i accepted the fact that i am weak and a coward so there's no other way you can insult me by telling me that I'm immoral and unworthy of life.

I included my method so as not to add confusion in the way of my death, and i dont want those creepy doctors diecting my body for autopsy. Let's continue.

To my parents whom i dearly love, i want to say I love you. I am always saying it everyday but there is nothing wrong woth saying it one last time. Thank you for running my life for me and making my future plans without my participation. I understand that it is for the better, but it wouldn't hurt if you sometimes let me choose what i want, but don't worry it does not lessen my love for you.

Don't get me wrong my parents are probably the best parents there is, but sometimes they tend to become autocratic. It's nice since they give you all the THINGS you want in exchange for total obedience. It may be too much for some but it has grown on me.

To my crew hanging with youand spending the days learning, having fun and facing everyday school problems, belong to the most precious memories i have. You should continue living life as if there are no problems waiting for you. May you all succeed in your chosen fields caue i know i can't anymore.

My crew is the best set of friends i ever had, they may not be the richest, smartest or the most popular but they sure know how to make our boring lives seem livelier than it really is. Too bad im not going to be there anymore. I wonder if they would miss me.

To Nomad, like what's the problem dude? I never did anything to you and you still act indifferent towards me, is it because i am more appealing to girls than you are? Or is it the fact that you know i am WISER than you are? Or the fact that your friends are not really your friends but a bunch of persons trying to please you so you won't rat on them?

Nomad is an X friend of mine. I never knew there could be x's in friends but Nomad prooved me wrong. Nomad is smart but he tends to be concieted at times and uses his friends for his sole benefit, you can never as k fo his help unless there is something in it for him.

To Rohan, i wanted to be your friend but you never gave me a chance and now that i am dead i will visit you every night at exactly 1 a.m. or is it day? Till you agree to be friends with me.

To my girl, I don't know if this will be tough on your partor you may consider this as liberating situation, since nobody will be bothering you every single day and tellig you how much you mean to him. I know you are really busy and all,but can you come at least to my wake? I love you so much and in leaving this world, there is only one thaing that i'll miss and it's you. You may never love me but you will always be in my mind and in my heart.

I wonder if she could ever forgive me for calling her my girl? I love her so much and i always pray to God that He will keep her safe and maybe He could make her love me too, but it never happened. Now killing myself won't be a waste if i will see her shed even just a single tear for me, at least i'll know she cares.

To those i maybe forgetting, i don't know what i am to you, but i am sure yoy are something to me. The only problem is i have forgotten for the moment. Thanks anyway.
please play cemetery drive by My Chemical Romance on my funeral; it does help to be modern in such times.

yankee

If i die, i will have no regrets...except for the fact that I'll never get the chance to have my own choice I longed for so long form my parents, or the fcat that i will miss out on he happenings that my crew would be doing, even the chance of having new friends. But maybe the worst thing about dying now is the fact that I'll never know whether my girl does love me too. I wish i have no regrets, but I do. Oh man! How come regrets come last? i wish i have thought of this a million gazillion times. Now i wish i will not die, too bad i drank all the pills up. I wonder...

END

Dahil jan andaming nagakala na lalaki ang sumulat, cover lang yun kaya lahat ng babae sa kwento ay lalaki at ang mga lalaki ay babae...

TRUE STORY yan hindi lang natuloy yung suicide

Halo-halong kwentong panimula

Magtanong kayo sakin ng malaman ko kung anong gusto nyong mabasa. Minsan naiisip ko totoo ba lahat ang nasa blog? O gawa gawa para makaentertain? Ikaw sumagot nyan ako nga nagtanong eh.

Siguro kung ang ilalagay ko sa blog ko ang nasa Diary ko na take note grade 3 pa ko ngsimula meaning mga 11 years ago na yun, maiiyak ang magbabasa sa haba ng kawalang kwentang sulat ko na maging pangungupit ko ng 25 centavos ay sinulat ko doon dahil wala akong mailagay. Oo nangupit ako ng 25 cents sa kalaro ko malaking halaga pa ito may nabibili itong bubble gum yung bilog bilog.

Hindi ako magaling na manunulat...Obvious ba? Madalas na namumula ang formal theme ko nun sa dami ng mali na sa sampung sinulat ko biruin mong may nakita silang labing isang mali. Aba hindi na tama yun, pinag-iinitan na nila ako. Anyway ganun talaga ang buhay kapag bulok kang magsulat, anjan yung makikita mo ang mga gawa ng mga kaklase mo na mapapalagay sa school paper na sa katotohanan naman ay walang katuturan. Pero mabenta sa mga guro...sa mga estudyante? Awan kadalasang nagiging panghampas lang nila sa kapwa magaaral ang mga school paper na ito, maganda ding kolektahin at ipakilo. "Basura nila Pera ko!"

Bakit black...dark, mysterious, grimmy,at kung anu-ano pang ka diliman na salita na hindi ko alam. Napansin ko lang mahilig lang ako sa black para kunwari maputi ako. Pero dito sa blog para mapadama ko ang aking kalungkutan at paghihinagpis....etcetera etcetera etcetera. Bulok din akong magdrama wala yata talaga akong gift of creativity kaya pagpasyensyahan niyo ang kabulukan ko.